It Finally Occurred To Me…

that the answer to a recent challenge was found in three letters; one vowel and two consanants. Sometimes I can be so dense

In wrestling with HOW

                                           I only had to know WHO.  

Funny how rearranging one vowel and two consonants alter one’s perspective. 

It occurred to me that while I prayed for strength in the challenge, wisdom to pull it off and 

                                          grace to receive the accolades…only a little,

that through all the blood, sweat and tears, as if the whole of success rested upon the whole of me; 

It finally occurred to me I had failed to do the one thing necessary, 

with the one attitude necessary.

It occurred to me I had only to….

                                           ASK!

Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks, receives, and (s)he who seeks, finds; and to him(her) who knocks, it will be opened. Matt 7:7-8

Ask and you will receive, that your joy may be full. John 16:24                            

Just Ask. Three letters. One vowel and two consonants.

You do not have because you do not ask. James 4:2

What a great idea!  

It finally occurred to me.

Reflections in the Mirror

I don’t like looking in the mirror but I need to get ready for work every morning and I need to at least look presentable.

I don’t like my mirror, or rather the reflection I see. Can I get a witness?

Who do you see when you look in the mirror?  Whose image?  Do you like what you see?

or do you, like me, wish for different

Because you feel…

Different or…

Unattractive?

Life has taught me a number of lessons.  Making friends with my mirror, accepting and believing the truth of who I am, are just two of my latest.

Wouldn’t it be nice for a change to remember the truth that we are “fearfully and wonderfully made”;

That the pinnacle of all creation occurred on the sixth day.

So God created human beings in his own image. In the image of God he created them; male and female he created them…Then God looked over all he made and saw that it wad very good! And evening passed and morning came, marking the sixth day.  Genesis 1:27 &31

Lets make a habit of celebrating the One whose image we bear instead of criticizing the self whose image stares back at us every morning.

Or

Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is kept safe.                                                                                       Proverbs 29:25

We can either spin our wheels with all of our frenzied best, to perform for or please everyone, or anyone, or noone; 

OR…

We can relax in the skin with which we are fearfully and wonderfully   wrapped,

to be the blessing we were meant to become, 

by living a life we were meant to live, and pleasing an audience of…

Only One

     
          

          

              

          

           
    

Wasteful Spending, Honest 

Why do you spend money for what is not bread and your wages for what does not satisfy?                                                                                           Isaiah 55:2

He was to my right, the one man in my life for whom I had fallen

     And fallen hard. 

The one guy with whom I’d grown close, with whom I’d shared and laughed and prayed and leaned on as I struggled hard to raise a child.

The guy who could fix electrical wiring as easily as a computer hard drive was also the guy after whom I had pined and then constructed a happily-ever-after ministry, with the utmost attention to detail; every square inch and extending right up to the edges of a fence   

     Of the white-picket persuasion; the only problem was, he wasn’t,                  

          pining, I mean; not after me, 

not after anyone. 

He had said so verbally, but I never heard him. Funny how words fall silent upon ears that can’t listen; and I wasn’t listening, to his words, I mean…

Only his actions.

     And you know how loud they can be.

I am the bread of life. He who comes to Me shall never hunger, and he who believes in Me shall never thirst.                                             John 6:35

But here he was after all these years, after all these years of rifted silence between us, right next to me on a barstool at a surprise meeting place whose location is known only to my dream…just friends;

honest-to-goodness friends engaged in honest-to-goodness and casual conversation like any other honest-to-goodness friends do. 

And I faced his unshaven expression and told him, honest-to-goodness told him I’d missed him. I missed him because we never got to talk anymore.  And part of me does

     Miss him I mean…minus the pining, minus the hunger.  Sometimes for just a moment, I wonder still, if he does too.

No matter because I’ve moved far away from there…

     

     To here…

I am the Lord your God who brought you out of the land of Egypt; (the land of your longing, of your hunger and thirst, of your loneliness metaphormine) open your mouth wide and I will fill it!                                              Psalm 81:10

Because I’ve finally learned to spend my resources wisely;

     At least most of the time. 

If God…

     is not LORD over the least of our worries,

          the least of our cares,
               the least of our concerns
                    the least of out moments

He is not LORD at all 

Morning

A favorite summer ritual of mine, email devotionals, journaling and worship music aside, is to sit outside with a cup of dark roast and watch a sleepy world open its eyes and stretch.  In the waking is where I find renewal, caffeine or not.

Wish I could capture in words, a morning bathed in velvet sunrise and share the image so that our eyes behold the same beauty. 

Wish I could breathe in the fresh coolness and revive your spirit so that you too may inhale grace. 

And I wish I could walk barefoot and tickle your toes with blades of green drenched with dew, and join my laughter to yours; and then dance with delight as leaves in the breeze.

But I can’t. 

Wish I had eyes to see, physically, what my spirit sees; the Hand that holds the world and holds ours; angels surrounding me and the ones I love; a heart, rock hard, steel hard, soften in His embrace, a mind or body  wracked in pain and healed by mercy.

Wish I could see, physically, 

     the process as well as the product, 

          The Healer as well as the healing

But I can’t.     

Somehow it’s enough for now, to breathe in and exhale this moment

     For grace freely extended

And simply to 

     Freely receive it all with a grateful heart

          By faith.

For we walk by faith and not by sight.          2 Corinthians 5:7

                                                                                                                               

The Questions that Unraveled me…

What do  you believe?  

     Who do you say that I am?

          Not your friends,

               Or your boss

                     Or ____________? Fill in the blank.

Questions like this are personal, 

     surprising and

          demand an answer.

When I read Peter’s response, “You are the Christ, the Son of the Living God, my spirit heard:

“If you believe I AM able, that I AM who I say I AM, if you believe these things, why do doubts aris in your heart?  If you believe ME, why do you doubt My work in your life? It is in ME that you live and move and have your being! Why then does this challenge frighten you so?  

If you believe as you say you do, you will see to that it is I who am working in you to accomplish all that is asked of you; you will see that it is not your ability at all, but My ability in and through you. My Spirit flows readily throughout your entire being like the blood coursing through your arteries to feed, to nourish, to cleanse and refresh every organ. 

You often get things confused child as so many of My children do. 

Never forget that your life is hidden with God in Christ. You are not your own. You are precious in My sight for you were purchased at the exorbitant cost of the Son whom I love. 

Freely receive                                                                                                                                                            what I have most assuredly and freely                                                                                                                                                               given.”