Why do you spend money for what is not bread and your wages for what does not satisfy? Isaiah 55:2
He was to my right, the one man in my life for whom I had fallen
And fallen hard.
The one guy with whom I’d grown close, with whom I’d shared and laughed and prayed and leaned on as I struggled hard to raise a child.
The guy who could fix electrical wiring as easily as a computer hard drive was also the guy after whom I had pined and then constructed a happily-ever-after ministry, with the utmost attention to detail; every square inch and extending right up to the edges of a fence
Of the white-picket persuasion; the only problem was, he wasn’t,
pining, I mean; not after me,
not after anyone.
He had said so verbally, but I never heard him. Funny how words fall silent upon ears that can’t listen; and I wasn’t listening, to his words, I mean…
Only his actions.
And you know how loud they can be.
I am the bread of life. He who comes to Me shall never hunger, and he who believes in Me shall never thirst. John 6:35
But here he was after all these years, after all these years of rifted silence between us, right next to me on a barstool at a surprise meeting place whose location is known only to my dream…just friends;
honest-to-goodness friends engaged in honest-to-goodness and casual conversation like any other honest-to-goodness friends do.
And I faced his unshaven expression and told him, honest-to-goodness told him I’d missed him. I missed him because we never got to talk anymore. And part of me does
Miss him I mean…minus the pining, minus the hunger. Sometimes for just a moment, I wonder still, if he does too.
No matter because I’ve moved far away from there…
I am the Lord your God who brought you out of the land of Egypt; (the land of your longing, of your hunger and thirst, of your loneliness metaphor–mine) open your mouth wide and I will fill it! Psalm 81:10
Because I’ve finally learned to spend my resources wisely;
At least most of the time.