Or

Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is kept safe.                                                                                       Proverbs 29:25

We can either spin our wheels with all of our frenzied best, to perform for or please everyone, or anyone, or noone; 

OR…

We can relax in the skin with which we are fearfully and wonderfully   wrapped,

to be the blessing we were meant to become, 

by living a life we were meant to live, and pleasing an audience of…

Only One

     
          

          

              

          

           
    

Wasteful Spending, Honest 

Why do you spend money for what is not bread and your wages for what does not satisfy?                                                                                           Isaiah 55:2

He was to my right, the one man in my life for whom I had fallen

     And fallen hard. 

The one guy with whom I’d grown close, with whom I’d shared and laughed and prayed and leaned on as I struggled hard to raise a child.

The guy who could fix electrical wiring as easily as a computer hard drive was also the guy after whom I had pined and then constructed a happily-ever-after ministry, with the utmost attention to detail; every square inch and extending right up to the edges of a fence   

     Of the white-picket persuasion; the only problem was, he wasn’t,                  

          pining, I mean; not after me, 

not after anyone. 

He had said so verbally, but I never heard him. Funny how words fall silent upon ears that can’t listen; and I wasn’t listening, to his words, I mean…

Only his actions.

     And you know how loud they can be.

I am the bread of life. He who comes to Me shall never hunger, and he who believes in Me shall never thirst.                                             John 6:35

But here he was after all these years, after all these years of rifted silence between us, right next to me on a barstool at a surprise meeting place whose location is known only to my dream…just friends;

honest-to-goodness friends engaged in honest-to-goodness and casual conversation like any other honest-to-goodness friends do. 

And I faced his unshaven expression and told him, honest-to-goodness told him I’d missed him. I missed him because we never got to talk anymore.  And part of me does

     Miss him I mean…minus the pining, minus the hunger.  Sometimes for just a moment, I wonder still, if he does too.

No matter because I’ve moved far away from there…

     

     To here…

I am the Lord your God who brought you out of the land of Egypt; (the land of your longing, of your hunger and thirst, of your loneliness metaphormine) open your mouth wide and I will fill it!                                              Psalm 81:10

Because I’ve finally learned to spend my resources wisely;

     At least most of the time.